Wrapped in Lies

You lived your life telling lies, cheating, being inhumane....
So the day you come clean, start afresh, your behavior changes...you sleep longer, you do less things cause you don't have the energy and you don't want to bump into people of the past...

Suddenly your loved ones start accusing you of spending time with someone else (cause in their mind you spent the night before with the one you have cheated with);
You can't wake up the next morning(s) cause you partied all night long;
You get seen in the same vicinity as an ex and suddenly you wanna be back with that person or better yet, you were with that person....

For once i am not cheating, not lying, stopped using and yet i am still in the wrong....I don't blame the person for thinking the way they are, but can you ever be forgiven??
Can one ever move on again with the person you hurt SO badly? Its tough but I am game to work hard at it.

Worst still:
Is everyone just living a lie and nobody knows the truth
anymore? So when you tell the truth, you are actually lying??? A recovering addict, cheater, lier yes can always go back to the way they were, and if they are in recovery, it

is a LONNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGG hard road, so nurture them in every way possible, be there for that person, ask more questions about the things they are going through, try to understand and don't down the already fragile sanity the person is trying to rebuild...after all, why be patient enough to read this when there is no interest to know what is going on inside that head?